beauty among chaos….

Monday Evening- February 9th 



Today was the start to a whole new week, and I was honestly so excited to see the



 kids and to give them hugs and kisses. These kids have become such a huge part of 



my life; I often forget how much they truly mean to me and how much I really do love



them. After having a long weekend, it was great to see them again. I start to wonder



what if will be like when I have to say goodbye to them in May. It's really to much



for me to handle on my own, so as soon as I do start to think about it I have to place



it back in God's hands. I have to live each day, one day at a time. The past 5 months



these people have been my family, my encouragement, my church congregation, and my



home. How could I possibly leave them behind and never come back? I ask myself that



question all the time, but then I am reminded that God knows the future and that



His plans for me are perfect and full of hope and life. 



Today class was beautiful. God has taught me to see beauty among the chaos, and 



shouting. To look at each one of these children and truly see them like Christ does.



They are still crazy, don't listen a majority of the time and a lot of times don't 



understand them, but its okay. God has shown me this weekend I am not there to get



them to sit completely still and have them understand every word I say. His love,



He has so freely given to me will flow from me to them, and that will make all the



difference. When they feel loved, heard, and genuinely cared for they will start



to respect me. But you see what I have also come to understand and know, it doesn't



matter if they remember me. When I leave in May and they are without a teacher it 



won't matter if they forget all the games we played, learned and all about me.



It will only matter if they are changed by God's love. When I leave in May I want



to leave a legacy of Christ's love. I want them to remember me as the teacher that



taught them all about the most important thing in life-Jesus.  



Please keep praying for my students. I usually have around twenty on a normal 



day. I have one boy that is completely deaf and mute. It is so like God, to place



 him in my class. As most of you know I know sign language and really have not been 



able to use it except in the church for special music and such. But God has given



me this great opportunity to teach him how to speak. I can't imagine how frustrating



it is to him not being to communicate to anyone his thoughts or feelings. He is 



amazingly a very well behaved boy, and is so eager to learn how to talk with his



hands. The kids all just received today a notebook of their own to write in every



day and do their work. I couldn't believe how their eyes just lit up when I gave



each student their own book. I have learned to see Christ even in the little things.



 –"From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise."- Psalm 8:2a







Much Love,



-ellie